As days of growth continue to unfold, my heart longs for more. More of identifying unfruitful nature, more conviction and more time seeking the heart of God. When I really look at the ways, moments and opportunities God beautifully places at my feet every day I am incredibly humbled. But when I look at the disciple I am called to be I begin to grasp my brokenness, my infinite sin and the endless areas of my life deeply in need of growth.
“Behold my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen, in whom my soul delights; I have put my Spirit upon him…He will not grow faint or be discouraged…Thus says God, the Lord, who created the heavens and stretched them out, who spread out the earth and what comes from it, who gives breath to the people on it and spirit to those who walk in it: “I am the Lord; I have called you in righteousness; I will take you by the hand and keep you; I will give you as a covenant for the people, a light for the nations, to open the eyes that are blind, to bring out the prisoners from the dungeon, from the prison those who sit in darkness.” –Isaiah 42: 1-9
We are called to such a high purpose, but we are so feeble, vessels so broken. But every day when the morning sun rises we are called to give up our plans, purposes, our selfish desires and hopes. We must give our entire heart and soul to be His every moment of every day. We have the most glorious, beautiful and indescribable gift to place our hand into the hands that gave life to our very souls. We are called to empty our hands and ourselves of everything but the cross. Then He will use us as He wills and send us where He desires. His intricate and uniquely designed plan is greater than our minds could ever imagine.
“Blessed are those whose strength is in You, in whose heart are the highways to Zion… They go from strength to strength.” –Psalm 84:5,7
Sometimes in the midst of my daily responsibilities I forget that there is only one thing that truly matters: the Gospel. It can be so hard for us to grasp how as His servants we are to fully put off this world. In this, we must seek Him wholly and His Kingdom before any of our daily tasks because each one is an opportunity to take hold of the glorious stewardship He has lavished on us. Each and every moment matters solely for the ministry He has entrusted to us. My weak, feeble brain can barely even begin to wrap my mind around the fact that our hearts can be a highway to Him in every interaction we encounter. Those moments that sometimes we dread throughout our day could just be a divine appointment so thoroughly planned and held in the sovereign Hands of our Creator.
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” –Jeremiah 17:7-8
I absolutely love the beauty of having the ability to daily surrender, unabashedly lay down my life to the most unfathomable LORD. I sit in reverence when I think about the divinity of a relationship between a Father and child that so lovingly reveals areas of our life that need growth. Sometimes it can be painful, but experiencing growth with your hand in the hands of your Jesus is the most indescribable intimacy. As it says in Jeremiah 18, “Behold, like the clay in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand.” As His chosen servants it is the moments spent at His feet that continually nourish these roots deeper and deeper. It is these moments that prepare our hearts for when we send our roots out each and every day. May we walk in His truth with all of our heart and soul that no matter the affliction, battles, calm moments, random moments, beautiful moments and all the in between that we may bear fruit.
“The trusting soul- whose roots are collecting life-giving water shall not fear the scorching heat. Instead she will endure the heat with leaves of green. She will bear fruit faithfully and never cease to yield fruit even in times of drought. Because of God Himself, she will be like the tree of life.” –Elizabeth George
One morning last week I woke up before the sun, tied up my matted auburn curls and tiptoed down the stairs of 223 to a grand morning on our porch. During this time of stillness I wrote this prayer on a crumpled up notecard I had in the back of my bible and keep it with me at all times now.
I pray that no matter the burdens or the anxieties today holds, I remember that all the matters is the gospel. This morning and every morning I will rest in that I can never flee from Your Presence (Psalm 139) and You will not abandon my soul (Psalm 16). Empty my hands this morning LORD and may Your word fill every facet of my being. For You are my chosen portion, my cup. (Psalm 16). In You alone today my flesh dwells secure, so I need not strive for man. As I seek Your beautiful and precious moments full of new mercies I will find fullness and joy in Your presence. I give up all of my plans today for Your purpose alone. I pray that I am sensitive to Your guidance and intimacies as I walk with my hand in Yours today. I pray that I awknowledge and seek to throw off everything that may be hindering me from doing so. (Hebrews 12:1-3). I will walk in Your truth and allow Your word to light my path. (Psalm 119:105) I pray that in every divine interaction everyone is met with a glimpse of who You are and Your love. I am Your servant, may You be glorified. I will rejoice in Your love that will never relent.
“That they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified.” –Isaiah 61:3