The Pursuit

I love the concept of pursuit. I love our dire need, desire and deep craving for intimacy. I love our relational need for love, an all-sufficient, never-failing and never ending love. Have you ever noticed how the pursuit of our hearts is so incredibly intimate with the most gracious, unfathomable love, where as our pursuit is indescribably weak and faithless? (no matter how faithful we believe ourselves to be.)

This semester I learned the truth, I am Elimelech, period. The threads of my life have been so carefully, so intricately, so beautifully woven together but the wandering nature of my heart daily longs for more. The deep facets of my heart, all the way down into the depths of my bones yearns for greener pastures. Despite the truth written on my heart and my soul, engraven by the hands of mercy. Thus this is the epitome of our absolute, total depravity. That the LORD faithfully provides more than we can ever ask or imagine, but yet our eyes fail as our hearts desire another cup, another well.

It all comes down to the infallible truth that the finite cannot grasp the infinite. We take in, but drinking it deep down, allowing it to settle in our bones is completely daunting due to our incapability. Our incapability to understand and to wrap our feeble, human minds around the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation, the preeminence of Christ. We seek to reach up, to take hold of him, to believe the powerful truth of who we are- bought with the precious blood of Christ. But in our own strength we can never seem to reach, to grasp, to be loved, to receive grace upon grace. Then in moments plagued by our immense weakness the devil takes hold, takes root in these facets of our heart, causing us to believe that we are capable of grasping the next step in our journey on the narrow path to life.

This is when we are on the dangerous end of this paradox of love. It is not our own competence in pursuit because the powerful truth is our pursuit is plagued by unbelief and faithlessness. It is only the pursuit of our hearts through the tenderest intimacy by the Holy Spirit that are we able to take hold, to begin to grasp, to begin to receive love. However, this majestic, extravagant, freeing flight of our souls will crash into a wall of ourselves. Leading to one of the most vital journeys in our walk alongside Christ in that “He must increase, but I must decrease.” – John 3:30.

This journey begins on a simple pursuit of nothing but Him. One of the greatest obstacles is the human tendency to depend on our own strength and resources. Our flesh is plagued by vices, but the journey begins in exploring the meaning behind truly glorying in our Redeemer. In Philippians Paul says,
“But whatever gain, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my LORD. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ, and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith.” –Philippians 3:7-9

In this Paul demolishes his own human ability for righteousness by proclaiming that anything at all that he gains is absolutely nothing in comparison with the righteousness that comes from God by faith.

I love reflection. I love that our hearts can reminisce on the good, the true, on the suffering amidst different trials, and see with clear eyes the praiseworthy moments, the loveliness of every mercy. I love that our souls can dance on the disappointment, the hurt, the frustration because of our insufficiency to walk alone. That no matter what we may gain in the eyes of man, means absolutely nothing to the discipline that we beautifully and lovingly receive through our heavenly Father. The LORD unveiled the parallel consistencies between my heart and the heart of Elimelech. The tendencies to allow my flesh to increase greater than my Bridegroom who holds every second of my life in the palm of His sovereignty.

As you read this, drink it down and allow it to settle amidst your heart and soul, all the way down to the depths of your bones. This is the confidence that we have. The confidence in the Spirit of God, in Christ Jesus that our hearts are capable to cease striving. The confidence that our weakness was carefully designed to reveal our all-sufficient, all-powerful LORD. The confidence that we are invited into this intimacy despite our infinite brokenness, in order that we might begin to grasp the greatness of His love. This invitation allows the thickest, hardest walls around our heart to collapse into the arms of mercy.
It is the simple pursuit of nothing but Him that allows us to experience sacrificial submission, opening the door to His gracious compassion and powerful deliverance.

“Run happily into the joy of our Father’s embrace, the glory of His grace is magnified and the longing of our soul is satisfied.” – John Piper

I will glory in my Redeemer
Whose priceless blood has ransomed me
Mine was the sin that drove the bitter nails
And hung Him on that judgment tree
I will glory in my Redeemer
Who crushed the power of sin and death
My only Savior before the holy Judge
The Lamb who is my righteousness
The Lamb who is my righteousness

I will glory in my Redeemer
My life He bought, my love He owns
I have no longings for another
I’m satisfied in Him alone
I will glory in my Redeemer
His faithfulness my standing place
Though foes are mighty and rush upon me
My feet are firm, held by His grace
My feet are firm, held by His grace

I will glory in my Redeemer
Who carries me on eagles’ wings
He crowns my life with lovingkindness
His triumph song I’ll ever sing
I will glory in my Redeemer
Who waits for me at gates of gold
And when He calls me, it will be paradise
His face forever to behold
His face forever to behold

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