Forgetfulness

7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. 8 We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed10 always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. 11 For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So death is at work in us, but life in you.
2 Corinthians 4: 7-12

How often do we live in the seen, versus the unseen? How often we dwell in the present discomfort or moment versus hopefulness of eternal glory. We live in the seen due to forgetfulness, therefore we find ourselves in a state of codependency instead of servanthood. Striving for perfection, addicted to the thoughts and approval of man, versus present engagement in the mercy of a moment.
Due to our depravity, our moral inability, we are drowning, entangled in the chains of forgetfulness, codependency, unbelief. Our human grasp on these causes us to run in circles because the whispers of evil capitalize on our infinite weakness. This is seen in one moment of confidently drawing near to the throne of grace, to the next in running in the opposite direction taking charge into our own brokenness. We forget the light of the gospel as we live in our momentary experiences. By forgetting the light of the gospel we forget our calling, our calling to suffer, our calling serve, our calling to love, our calling for boldness, our calling for persecution and our calling for joy. Forgetfulness is akin to unbelief, akin to fear, and akin to codependency.

There is a unique, miraculous, unfathomable nature to revelations to us by our heavenly father. My heart has been laid bare, for nothing is hidden from Him. Through the beauty of intimate pursuit, my heart laid bare unveiled the human mastery behind codependency. We all have our own little love cup. Yes indeed we claim with our lips, our sinful lips that we alone have Jesus, our portion, our cup. Yet we run away the second that our love cup is not filled, but we long for it to be fulfilled with psychological needs with no biblical foundation. Our desperately ill souls are captured by the secular commonality that we deserve our love cup to be filled. We subconsciously believe that we deserve love, deserve empowerment, deserve opportunity, and deserve our needs to be met. When in actuality our needs are captitalized by lust, addiction to human approval, and seeking to be accepted by the world when we are not of the world. For us to seek fulfillment of this cup is to forget that Christ is all, alone our surpassing worth. To seek fulfillment of this cup is to forget our calling to be afflicted, perplexed, and persecuted, struck down, to waste away, and we will live in the seen.

For me, this is the motif of being entangled in my own brokenness. To seek psychological worth is to forget Him, to forget to give thanks in all circumstances is to forget Him. To forget that the cross precedes the crown means forgetting that suffering must precede glorification. To eclipse joy is to undo all of His finished work in my own heart. To forget reverence is to forget who He is, to forget who He is to focus only on what He have done for us personally. To forget to sit in remembrance is impatience, discontent, codependency, fear and unbelief.

Only in remembrance of His abundant kindness can our ungrateful hearts be melted in the light of His supreme expression of kindness. For those who fear him lack nothing. But in reverence are the sheep of His hand, walking in the vast depths of His holiness/sovereignty/glory/strength/glory and majesty. No vices of our heart can be hidden from His heat and His sovereignty. However, our forgetfulness in remembrance allows our souls to wander, to believe we are hidden in our own unbelief. We should tremble because we live in the presence of divine love. Remembrance of holy love and holy justice leads to our fear/reverence/faith.

I continually pray for the strength to let go and leap into His arms. To plunge into the depths not just of His scandalous love, but of who He is, My Sovereign Risen King. That my walls would be broken brick by brick, cultivating gratitude and thankfulness for His grace in all circumstances. May we have a peaceful heart marked by a joyful reflection of what is good, Him, our divine, glorified Father.

We shall live in the unseen. The treasure of the promise of no longer being crushed, in despair, forsaken. The promise of the renewal of our inner self and the eternal weight of glory. We shall have one cup- our LORD, our father God, our Savior Jesus Christ. We shall desire the truth of His word alone, to live in accordance to the living and active word. Simply, our only need has already been met by the completed work by Jesus Christ on the cross, who bought us with His precious blood. Our lives he bought, our lives he owns. Forgetfulness is not found in him, nor shall it be found in us.

“Behold, now is the favorable time; behold, now is the day of salvation.3 We put no obstacle in anyone’s way, so that no fault may be found with our ministry, 4 but as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: by great endurance, in afflictions, hardships, calamities, 5 beatings, imprisonments, riots, labors, sleepless nights, hunger; 6 by purity, knowledge, patience, kindness, the Holy Spirit, genuine love; 7 by truthful speech, and the power of God; with the weapons of righteousness for the right hand and for the left; 8 through honor and dishonor, through slander and praise. We are treated as impostors, and yet are true; 9 as unknown, and yet well known; as dying, and behold, we live; as punished, and yet not killed; 10 as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, yet possessing everything.”
2 Corinthians 6:2-13

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